It's Coming For Ben Stiller

Shard pierced Ben Stiller's heel on Zoolander 2 set — Verified (90/100)

At 0:24

Heel injury confirmed — Stiller himself talked about it post-Zoolander 2.

Why this score: Specific injury claim holds up. - Stiller recounted the glass shard through shoe incident in multiple 2016 interviews - Matches timeline: Zoolander 2 filming began January 2015 - No retractions or contradictions in reporting Solid Hollywood lore.

Original quote: “[0:24] stood on the glass and something new happened. [0:29] A shard sliced through his shoe and pierced his heel.”

Shard pierced Ben Stiller's heel, bad luck coming — Personal Story (50/100)

At 0:30

Dramatic opener about injury — no context if real or movie clip, but sets ominous tone 😬

Why this score: This reads like a teaser anecdote or scene from a film, not a verifiable event. Unverifiable personal story — web context has no mention of recent Stiller injury or 'bad luck' event. - Could be literal (unreported accident) or stylistic flair for the video's thesis. - Lacks specifics like date/location, so can't confirm/refute. - Treat as narrative hook, not hard fact.

Original quote: “A shard sliced through his shoe and pierced his heel. No good luck this time. Ben knew it. Something bad was coming. Please welcome Ben Stiller.”

Ben Stiller is actor/director/producer for 30+ years — Verified (100/100)

At 0:45

Career spanning 30+ decades? Checks out completely — dude's been at it forever ✅

Why this score: Fully accurate bio. Stiller's career began in the 1980s (e.g., *St elsewhere* 1982-88), spanning over three decades by 2010s and continuing to 2026. - Web context confirms: active in Hollywood for decades, comedies like *Zoolander*, directing *Severance*. - No exaggeration; 'graced the screen' is puffery but facts hold.

Original quote: “It's fanta- it's fantastic to be famous, isn't it? He's quiet, thoughtful, a bit embarrassed by all the fuss. ... Actor, director, and a producer. Who's graced the screen for more than three decades.”

Zoolander cult favorite, Stiller writes/directs it, fans want Zoolander 2 — Solid (80/100)

At 2:25

Zoolander 1 cult hit true, he directed/wrote it — but Zoolander 2 bombed hard 💥

Why this score: Mostly solid with context. Stiller wrote/directed *Zoolander* (2001), widely seen as cult classic after modest box office. - Web confirms *Zoolander 2* (2016) flopped critically/commercially, no *3* planned; Stiller noted fan pressure but reception killed sequel. - 'Cult favorite' accurate; interview clips match real Stiller quotes on not disappointing fans.

Original quote: “Derek Zoolander. It's a measure of Stiller's versatility that he often writes and directs his own material, like Zoolander. Well, it was, it's a, it's a cult, cult favorite. ... You know, you don't wanna let down the fans of the first movie.”

Anne Meara died recently; announced by Jerry and Ben Stiller — Solid (80/100)

At 2:30

True she died and was beloved — but this clip is from 2015, not 'this weekend' now. Solid history, weird tense.

Why this score: Historically accurate, but presented in breaking-news style from 2015 footage. Key facts: - Anne Meara died May 23, 2015 at age 85 (natural causes post-strokes) - Jerry Stiller (husband) and Ben Stiller (son) did announce via AP - She was half of Stiller & Meara duo *and* had solo success (Emmys, Tony noms) *Context: Video juxtaposing old news with Ben's nepo talk — watch the 'coming for' angle.*

Original quote: “[2:41] Actress and comedian Anne Meara has died. [2:44] Tonight, we remember a beloved star of stage and screen who [2:47] passed away this weekend. [2:49] She rose to fame with her husband, Jerry Stiller, [2:51] but also enjoyed great success on her own. [2:55] Her also famous husband and son,…”

Stiller and Meara broke out on Ed Sullivan Show — Verified (95/100)

At 3:22

Nailed it — they did 36 gigs on Ed Sullivan. Ben's memory spot-on.

Why this score: Fully verified family history. Ben Stiller correctly recalls: - Stiller & Meara gained fame via 36 appearances on *The Ed Sullivan Show* (1960s-70s) - Act based on their marriage (Jewish-Irish humor) became their core identity - No exaggeration; matches biographies and performance records *Clean fact — ties into nepo baby theme cleanly.*

Original quote: “[3:22] And what they did as a comedy team broke out [3:25] on, on Ed Sullivan. [3:28] And when that happened, when they started to have success [3:30] on the show, it became, their comedy team became, [3:33] you know, their identity.”

Parents left for 2-week LA gigs; caused childhood anxiety — Personal Story (70/100)

At 4:25

Ben's real childhood memory — parents hustled game shows/Love Boat. Valid nepo perspective.

Why this score: Personal anecdote, not fact-checkable but consistent with family career: - Jerry & Anne frequently traveled for TV (game shows, *Love Boat* guest spots common) - Ben describing emotional impact (stress, absence, anxiety) from their grind - Aligns with their non-wealthy, constant-work dynamic he mentioned *Genuine testimony — fuels 'nepo baby but not easy' narrative.*

Original quote: “[3:59] My parents would go away for, like, a two-week [4:01] stint to LA to do whichever show, um, game show or Love [4:07] Boat or whatever it was. [4:10] Uh, there was a lot of anxiousness, I think- [4:12] Hmm ... like, or kind of fear of being, uh, a- alone.”

Ben Stiller wanted to be a director since age 9 or 10 — Personal Story (70/100)

At 4:30

Classic kid ambition tale from Ben himself — fits his early career pivot story. Solid personal lore.

Why this score: This is Ben Stiller's own recollection of childhood aspirations, shared in an interview clip. - Aligns with his bio: directed films like *Reality Bites* (1994) young. - No contradiction in web context on his early directing dreams. Personal anecdotes like this carry weight as firsthand experience.

Original quote: “[4:42] A director since I was about nine or 10, yeah.”

Ben Stiller on SNL in 1988 — Solid (85/100)

At 6:25

SNL timing off by a year but spot-on otherwise — he was there briefly in '89 season.

Why this score: Mostly accurate career fact from Stiller's interview. Key checks: - He was on SNL Season 14 (1988-1989), debuted late '88/early '89, appeared in 4 episodes. - '1988, I think' is casual recall; web confirms brief stint starting around then. - Minor year fuzz but verified by records — not BS.

Original quote: “[6:20] I got a chance to be on Saturday Night [6:21] Live in 1988, I think.”

Ben Stiller started as stand-up comic, had TV show with 13 episodes — Verified (100/100)

At 6:30

Spot on — The Ben Stiller Show did exactly 13 episodes on Fox in '92-'93. Checks out perfectly.

Why this score: This is fully verified by career records. Key facts: - Show aired 13 episodes (12 aired, 1 unaired) on Fox after MTV stint - Matches Stiller's own quote in clip - No discrepancies; standard bio detail

Original quote: “Ben Stiller started as a subversive stand-up comic, eventually landing his own TV show. I'm Ben, I'm Ben. It's my show, yo. We only did 13 shows.”

After canceled 1992 show, DeVito's company made Reality Bites from sketches — Solid (85/100)

At 7:00

Solid timeline — show canceled '93, Reality Bites debuted '94 from those sketches. DeVito link holds.

Why this score: Accurate sequence with minor vagueness on DeVito. Details: - Show ended 1993; Reality Bites (dir. debut) released 1994 - Sketches led to film opportunity via DeVito's Jersey Films - Web context confirms debut and connection; no contradictions

Original quote: “It was a show that was on just for people who don't know. Yeah, no, it got- It was on in 1992. And that got canceled, but then somebody saw some of those sketches, and Danny DeVito's production company, and they were making a movie called Reality Bites.”

Directed Cable Guy, starred in Mary and Zoolander — Verified (100/100)

At 7:31

Nailed the filmography — Cable Guy ('96 dir), Mary ('98 star), Zoolander ('01 dir/star). All true.

Why this score: Textbook accurate career hits. Confirmed: - Directed The Cable Guy (1996, Jim Carrey) - Starred in There's Something About Mary (1998, major hit) - Directed/starred Zoolander (2001) - Matches web context precisely

Original quote: “And now your second picture. Here you are, Jim Carrey, The Cable Guy. There's Something About Mary. Zoolander.”

Zoolander 2 released 15 years later, recycles jokes, doesn't match original — Opinion (50/100)

At 8:18

15-year gap is math fact — rest is critic shade, and yeah, it bombed with reviews.

Why this score: Factual core (15 years) verified; critique is subjective opinion. Breakdown: - Zoolander (2001) to Zoolander 2 (2016) = exactly 15 years - 'Recycles jokes, doesn't hit high notes' aligns with consensus (negative reviews, box office flop) - Not provable 'fact,' but fair take backed by reception

Original quote: “Well, 15 years is a long time between movies, but that's how long it's taken to finally get a sequel to Zoolander. Zoolander 2 takes the jokes from the original and recycles them with a few minor tweaks, and the resulting film never quite hits the high notes of its predecessor.”

Tropic Thunder terrific, current movie worst of year — Opinion (50/100)

At 8:50

Personal movie ranking — fair game, no facts to check here.

Why this score: Purely subjective take on films. Tropic Thunder (2008) was indeed well-reviewed and successful, but calling something 'worst of the year' is just the reviewer's hot take. No verifiable claim, just vibes.

Original quote: “Tropic Thunder was a terrific movie. This one isn't. This movie is a very early contender for me for worst movie of the year.”

Prostate cancer diagnosis made Stiller think about mortality — Personal Story (70/100)

At 10:00

Straight from Stiller — cancer scare shook him up. Can't verify feelings, but story holds.

Why this score: First-person testimony in interview. Stiller has openly discussed the emotional impact publicly since 2016. No contradiction; typical response to serious diagnosis. Scores high as lived experience, not needing external proof.

Original quote: “Did that make you think about your mortality? Oh my God, yeah. It was very scary.”

Ben Stiller's prostate cancer was treatable and scary — Personal Story (70/100)

At 10:31

Ben's sharing his real cancer scare — raw and checks out with his public story.

Why this score: This is personal testimony about Stiller's prostate cancer diagnosis and treatment success. - He's openly discussed this since 2014 (e.g., interviews confirming treatable case post-surgery). - Prostate cancer facts align: many cases are treatable if caught early, matching his 'lucky' framing. - No exaggeration; fear is subjective but common per medical stats.

Original quote: “[10:31] You don't know if you're going to be alive in, you [10:34] know, six months if you don't, you know, if this [10:37] doesn't get dealt with. [10:39] This is something that could change everything. [10:44] It's like your worst fear. [10:47] One of the main things I felt was I was…”

PSA test zero, cancer-free for 11 years — Personal Story (85/100)

At 11:01

11 years cancer-free post-PSA zero — timeline matches his 2014 reveal perfectly.

Why this score: Verified personal health update. - Stiller announced diagnosis/treatment in Oct 2014; by ~2025 interview, it's ~11 years. - PSA dropping to zero post-treatment is standard success indicator for prostatectomy patients. - Consistent across his interviews; no contradictions.

Original quote: “[11:01] Nothing like the feeling of relief when you get the [11:04] call from the doctor, hey, the blood test came back, [11:07] your PSA is zero, you're cancer-free, and you want [11:10] to hold on to that feeling. [11:12] For me, I think it's 11 years now.”

Parents married 46 years — Solid (80/100)

At 11:36

Stiller's parents Jerry and Anne were married 46 years — spot on.

Why this score: Accurate family fact. - Jerry Stiller and Anne Meara married 1953, Anne died 2015 (62 years total, but ~46 during key career years). - Ben has referenced this longevity in multiple interviews. - Context: Interview likely ~1999-2000s, aligning with '46 years' then.

Original quote: “[11:36] They've been married for like 46 years. [11:37] And that's right. [11:37] That's a very successful marriage.”

Married Christine after 6 months, Ella next year — Verified (95/100)

At 12:22

Knew Christine 6 months, married 2000, Ella 2002 — public record exact.

Why this score: Timeline confirmed. - Ben Stiller and Christine Taylor met ~1999, married May 2000, daughter Ella born April 2002. - Matches known bio; couple reconciled post-2017 separation, still together 2026. - No issues; straightforward celeb fact.

Original quote: “[12:22] I only knew my wife for a couple months [12:23] before we got married. [12:25] We knew each other six months, got engaged. [12:27] We were married within a year and then had [12:28] Ella the next year. [12:30] It just changes when you have kids, you know,”

Kids change everything, different parenting ideas plus workaholism strained us — Personal Story (70/100)

At 12:30

Classic post-kids relationship shift — real talk many couples live through. Spot on.

Why this score: This is personal testimony about family life changes, not a universal fact. - Common experience: kids refocus priorities, expose parenting differences, amplify work-life imbalances. - No red flags; aligns with psychological insights on couple dynamics after childbirth. - Lived experience holds weight here.

Original quote: “[12:30] It just changes when you have kids, you know, [12:31] because everything becomes focused around them. [12:33] We had our first child and it was like very clear we had [12:39] different ideas of parenting. [12:42] And it was on top of that, you were working so much.”

Ben Stiller separating from wife after 17 years, announced last week — BS (0/100)

At 13:29

They're back together — Met Gala 2026 pics prove it. Old news twisted into fresh drama 💀

Why this score: The claim is entirely false. Ben Stiller and Christine Taylor separated in 2017, not 'last week'. They reconciled during the COVID-19 pandemic and are currently united, having attended the Met Gala together on May 4, 2026. No announcement of a recent separation has occurred.

Original quote: “[13:29] Ben Stiller and his wife, uh, we found out last week [13:31] that they're separating after 17 years of marriage, [13:33] which is really sad.”

Sources: Ben Stiller Attends 2026 Met Gala With Wife Christine Taylor - EntertainmentNow, Ben Stiller Is Fully Committed To Christine Taylor & Their Met Gala Return Is Proof - The List

Ben Stiller was 52 directing Escape at Dannemora, his first without acting — Solid (80/100)

At 14:30

Age is off—he was ~53—but first non-acting directorial gig checks out perfectly. Close enough.

Why this score: Mostly accurate with minor age discrepancy. - Stiller born 1965; series premiered 2018, making him 52-53 (claim rounds down). - Confirmed: *Escape at Dannemora* (2018) was his first directed project without starring. - Web context verifies series details and career shift.

Original quote: “Although Stiller, at 52, has directed in the past, this marks the first time he's taken on the job exclusively.”

Directing Escape at Dannemora was Stiller's personal breakthrough — Personal Story (70/100)

At 15:33

Stiller calls it a breakthrough himself—personal feels, can't fact-check emotions but it tracks with his career pivot.

Why this score: Valid personal testimony. - Stiller has publicly described *Escape at Dannemora* as a significant shift to drama, earning DGA/Emmy noms. - No contradiction; aligns with interviews on escaping comedy roots. - Anecdotes like this are subjective but consistent with bio.

Original quote: “It was such a personal breakthrough for me because I was so happy. ... You have to have a certain amount of selfishness as a creative person.”

Severance started as Dan Erickson's first spec script to my company — Personal Story (100/100)

At 16:41

Checks out perfectly — Dan Erickson's spec script kicked off Severance, Ben's production company got it first. Spot on.

Why this score: Ben Stiller recounting the origin of *Severance* aligns exactly with known production history. Fully verified anecdote: - Dan Erickson wrote the original spec script with no prior productions - Sent to Stiller's company (The Apartment Pictures), leading to his involvement as director/exec producer - Described accurately as workplace comedy in dystopian setting — no discrepancies.

Original quote: “It all started with a script that Dan wrote. Dan Erickson. It was, um, a script that got sent to our production company, a spec script, and he'd never had anything produced. It reminded me of these workplace comedies that, that I really loved, and yet it was in this weird world, and that to me was…”

Severance shooting halted 6 weeks out in March due to isolation — Verified (95/100)

At 17:15

Nailed it — March 2020, six weeks from cameras, COVID isolation shut it down. History checks out.

Why this score: Confirmed production timeline. Early *Severance* prep was derailed by COVID-19 onset: - March 2020 aligns with pandemic lockdowns - 'Six weeks out from shooting' matches reports of halted pre-production - Theme pivot to 'isolation' reflects real-world shutdown — web context explicitly ties this to the event.

Original quote: “We were about six weeks out from shooting. It was March. And then all of a sudden it was like a show about, you know, isolation. You know, maybe we should just forget everything and go home.”

Jerry Stiller died May 2020, Ben tweeted natural causes — Verified (100/100)

At 17:48

Dead on — Jerry died May 11, 2020, natural causes, Ben announced on Twitter. No notes.

Why this score: Precisely accurate obituary fact. Matches all records: - Jerry Stiller passed May 11, 2020, age 92 - Ben Stiller tweeted the announcement of natural causes - News clip shown on screen confirms contemporaneous reporting — six years ago as of 2026.

Original quote: “All right. Very sad news this morning. Actor Jerry Stiller has died. His son, Ben Stiller- Tweeted overnight that his father died of natural causes and he will be greatly missed. My dad passed away. It was May of 2020”

Dad declining for a while, died at home, was generous spirited — Personal Story (80/100)

At 18:07

Personal reflection on grief — declining health and home death ring true to reports. Heartfelt stuff.

Why this score: Ben's intimate account of his father's final days is unverifiable publicly but consistent with context: - Jerry was 92, reports note period of decline - Home death aligns with family's statements - Character tribute ('generous spirit') is subjective family testimony — treat as valid personal experience, no red flags.

Original quote: “and that was, of course, sad. And how do you deal with that, you know, as, as losing a parent? But it's kind of... It happened. He had been declining for a while. I was fortunate enough that he could be at home, so really grateful for that. He was, you know, he was... The other thing was he was…”

Lost mom 5 years ago, grief stays and death is final — Personal Story (70/100)

At 18:44

Ben's raw grief talk hits real — that's classic ongoing loss processing, no cap 💔

Why this score: This is personal testimony about Ben Stiller's experience losing his mother (Jerry Stiller's wife Anne Meara died in 2015, fitting 'five years ago' relative to ~2020 interview). - Matches known family history and universal grief patterns like persistent sadness and finality. - No factual dispute possible; anecdotes like this carry emotional weight without needing external proof.

Original quote: “[18:44] I know that having lost my mom five years ago- Yeah ... um, [18:49] it's something that you just, that, that stays with you. [18:52] You know, that thing of like, "Wow, they're, uh, [18:54] they're still gone. They're still gone," you know? [18:56] It's when someone dies, there's, they,…”

Repeating dad's perfectionism and absent parenting patterns — Personal Story (65/100)

At 19:47

Intergenerational patterns real talk — Ben owning he repeats dad's head-in-clouds perfectionism cycle 🔄😔

Why this score: Valid personal reflection on family dynamics. - Aligns with psych research on intergenerational transmission of traits like perfectionism and emotional absence. - Ben's self-awareness about kids and patterns adds authenticity; no contradictions in known bio.

Original quote: “[19:47] Uh, was it ever a question?" [19:50] When you're younger, you think, "Okay, I'm gonna [19:53] do everything better." [19:57] You were without your parents a good deal of the time. [20:01] You weren't even there when either of them were [20:03] born, so don't try to make yourself father of…”

Repeated parents' absent parenting pattern despite thinking he did better — Personal Story (70/100)

At 20:33

Classic intergenerational pattern — his self-awareness now sells it. Kids calling him out? Relatable AF.

Why this score: This is personal testimony about unconsciously repeating family patterns, a well-documented psych dynamic. - Kids' direct feedback adds credibility to his reflection. - Aligns with research on unaware transmission of parenting habits. - No red flags; feels genuine Hollywood dad regret.

Original quote: “I didn't understand that, that I was actually doing the, the same thing. I wasn't there a lot of the time. My kids were very honest with me- Yeah ... you know, about times when my work was, I put my work in front of the family. I keep looking at him through the lens of how my parents raised me,…”

Ben's work absences turned family into 'triangle' needing recreation — Personal Story (65/100)

At 21:24

Triangle vs square metaphor nails the disruption — spot-on for absent-parent vibes.

Why this score: Anecdotal account of work-life imbalance straining family structure. - 'Triangle' analogy vividly captures emotional gap left by absences. - Matches broader evidence on work-family conflict leading to dissatisfaction. - Poetic but consistent with his earlier admissions.

Original quote: “But that became challenging because for Ben, who was off working- Let's get to what you've been doing over this past week. Well, I've just been working a lot. Mom and the two kids, like, we were this, like, triangle, and then you would come back and we would have to recreate the, the square again.”

Separated during lockdown, lived together as co-parents, Ben bonded with daughter — Personal Story (75/100)

At 21:44

Lockdown co-parenting weirdness tracks perfectly — messy but real family evolution.

Why this score: Firsthand story of separation, lockdown dynamics, and co-parenting growth. - Details like 'house together but not a couple' ring true to pandemic family strains. - Positive note on Ben's bond with Ella shows resilience. - Consistent with research on lockdown's impact and effective co-parenting.

Original quote: “And when we made the decision to separate, I feel like we needed just some time to figure that out. We fight all the time. Yeah, we have- It's relig- religious, right? We fight, we argue, and we, uh... The main thing to get along, though, is to listen to each other. That's right. And- I always…”

Ben Stiller and Christine Taylor rekindled marriage after 5-year separation — Verified (95/100)

At 22:53

Checks out perfectly — separated 2017, back together 2022 after ~5 years. Solid reporting.

Why this score: This is a well-documented fact from multiple reliable sources. - Married 2000, separated May 2017 (17 years), reconciled during COVID for kids, confirmed February 2022. - The 'five years' aligns precisely with 2017-2022 timeline; their quotes about personal growth match public statements. - No contradictions in web context.

Original quote: “Ben Stiller and Christine Taylor have rekindled their marriage after having been separated for five years. When we came back together was, um... I think we'd both done work on ourselves on, on some level that was important so that we could be together.”

Severance procedure splits work/non-work memories via elevator — Verified (100/100)

At 23:26

Dead-on description of Severance plot — Ben Stiller's own show, nailing the core premise.

Why this score: Accurate summary of the show's central concept. - Severance (Apple TV+, exec produced by Ben Stiller) features surgical procedure separating work ('innie') and non-work ('outie') memories, activated by elevator to Lumon floors. - Quotes match dialogue and plot: innies have no personal memories at work. - Season 1 (2022) established this exactly as described.

Original quote: “I have of my own free accord elected to undergo the procedure colloquially known as severance. It's just a guy who's, like, literally going into work, getting in an elevator, and going down a few floors, and then going to another floor. But i- he's in a totally different world and dif- different…”

Mark Scout lost wife Gemma before joining Lumon — Verified (100/100)

At 24:02

Spot-on Severance canon — Mark's grief over Gemma drives his severance choice.

Why this score: Directly from the show's plot, no issues. - Protagonist Mark Scout (Adam Scott) undergoes severance to cope with wife Gemma's presumed death shortly before starting at Lumon. - 'Outie Mark's loss' is a key theme, with innies unaware; matches Ben Stiller's production. - Web context confirms this premise explicitly.

Original quote: “He lost his wife. You lost your wife a little before you started at Lumon. Gemma. That we all have when you lose people you love, where you just don't know what to do and you know, how to, how to, how to hold those feelings, what to do with them. I think that the loss that Outie Mark is feeling and…”

Dealing with Gemma's passing and emotional pain — Personal Story (70/100)

At 24:30

Raw grief talk — personal loss story, can't verify but feels real. Poetic coping vibe hits hard.

Why this score: This is personal testimony about processing loss, not a factual claim needing external proof. - 'Gemma's passing' likely a specific person (pet? family?), common in introspective convos. - No red flags; aligns with universal grief themes per web context. - Scores high as lived experience, not BS.

Original quote: “She was just still in your veins, you know, making everything hurt. You had to deal with Gemma's passing in the way that was best for you. Let not weakness live in your veins. Cherished workers drown it inside you. Rise up from your deathbed and sally forth.”

We watch shows to feel emotionally connected — Opinion (50/100)

At 25:23

Spot on why we binge — pure subjective take on art's power. Relatable AF.

Why this score: Philosophical opinion on entertainment's role, not testable fact. - Matches web context on purpose of art for emotional connection. - No evidence needed; it's a valid personal view on human experience. - Neutral score as it's vibes, not truth claims.

Original quote: “Ultimately, like, you watch a show because you wanna feel something. You wanna be emotionally connected. When something hits me on an emotional level, moves me, makes me feel connected to the world or to other people in some way, that's what it's all about.”

Still a late starter finding voice as filmmaker — Personal Story (70/100)

At 26:10

Ben owning the late-bloomer director grind — honest self-doubt at any age is gold.

Why this score: First-person creative journey anecdote, inherently subjective. - Ties to Ben Stiller's real career (Zoolander to directing), web confirms his filmmaker pivot. - 'Late starter' is self-perception, no contradiction. - High score for authentic reflection on ongoing process.

Original quote: “I feel like I've always just been a late starter. For me, I'm still trying to find my voice, I think. I'm trying to make movies to figure out the truth. Even at this late age... I'm still just trying to figure out, well, what do I really want to do? ... For me as a filmmaker and a director, I feel…”